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May 29, 2008

30th Birthday Dinner Format

ryanuklisfpp (12:45:06 PM): I think I just stumbled across something here as it pertains to the 30th birthday dinner i mentioned
ryanuklisfpp (12:45:16 PM): i've been thinking a lot about what to do with the pkins
ryanuklisfpp (12:45:25 PM): there are i don't know 500-600 of them
ryanuklisfpp (12:45:29 PM): somewhere in that range i think
ryanuklisfpp (12:45:36 PM): some are "good" some are "bad"
ryanuklisfpp (12:45:39 PM): some are interesting
ryanuklisfpp (12:45:42 PM): some aren't
ryanuklisfpp (12:45:47 PM): most likely most aren't
ryanuklisfpp (12:46:16 PM): But I think the theme here is "Confusion"
ryanuklisfpp (12:46:22 PM): and "Pain"
ryanuklisfpp (12:46:36 PM): with intermingled moments of "hope"
ryanuklisfpp (12:47:00 PM): hopefully the moments of "hope" are growing and displacing moments of "confusion and pain"
ryanuklisfpp (12:47:35 PM): with that in mind then the Titanic Mistake exhibit would display confusion pain hope
ryanuklisfpp (12:48:02 PM): So chronologically "The Thing" is first
ryanuklisfpp (12:48:11 PM): and that's pretty much confusion and hope
ryanuklisfpp (12:48:30 PM): And then there's the video clips of the Hoboken Era
ryanuklisfpp (12:48:42 PM): Hands, Feet - Hope and celebration
ryanuklisfpp (12:49:49 PM): "I'm the Next American Idol" is anger (from pain and confusion) and hope (misdirected (word choice?) celebration in the context of being angry)
ryanuklisfpp (12:50:14 PM): There's also the one I thought of as "The West Side Story"
ryanuklisfpp (12:50:26 PM): which was me fart-singing dueling myself
ryanuklisfpp (12:51:01 PM): that could be some kind of consciousness breaking thru unconsciousness "thing"
ryanuklisfpp (12:51:32 PM): then there's a long pause, displayed by the record of paystubs
ryanuklisfpp (12:51:41 PM): until Pkin #1
ryanuklisfpp (12:52:05 PM): then there's a subset (possibly but maybe unlikely complete) of pkins
ryanuklisfpp (12:52:13 PM): Then there are the paintings
ryanuklisfpp (12:53:49 PM): the 4 I'm thinking of are 1) Nefarious Puker, 2) Comma on a Pedestal, 3) The Gift I Gave My Dad Denied and Taken Back, 4) The Alzheimer's Shades (The one you mostly did)
ryanuklisfpp (12:54:43 PM): Then there is a video segment of the Days with Dad
ryanuklisfpp (12:55:47 PM): All the while the soundtrack is a compilation of remixed songs of Titanic Mistake's choosing with elements of the Alzheimer's Songs that Titanic Mistake will write
ryanuklisfpp (12:56:31 PM): Including "Old McDonald Had a Farm", "Chandaloon", "Hey Good Lookin", "I Don't Care What They Say/You're Alright"
ryanuklisfpp (12:57:21 PM): And then there are maybe some photos of the time between the Video segment and the present
ryanuklisfpp (12:57:41 PM): And the Grand Finale - A Live Presentation of "Alzheimer's Theatre"
ryanuklisfpp (1:02:36 PM): Perhaps the live presentation will include famous stand-up bits, including but not limited to, stand-up routines of 2 people.... i.e. Abbott and Costello
ryanuklisfpp (1:02:49 PM): where Abbott is "normal" and Costello has Alzheimer's
ryanuklisfpp (1:03:02 PM): "Who's on third base?"
ryanuklisfpp (1:03:15 PM): "Terd face?"
ryanuklisfpp (1:03:26 PM): Not Terd Face, who's on First?
ryanuklisfpp (1:03:44 PM): Where's my fist?
ryanuklisfpp (1:03:58 PM): and so forth

May 23, 2008

30th Birthday Dinner

I think I'll host a dinner for my 30th birthday. Maybe you'd call it a "surprise dinner". However, the surprise is on the guests, for the most part. I'd introduce those I feel I want to introduce to my "otherness". Where the "otherness" is the art that is the expression of my life. I feel sorta strongly that art is not a thing but the way I live my life. So the shit that I want to expose to loved ones is an attempt of expressing some stuff that I haven't expressed. The truth and importance behind the event are my desire to share and the willingness to be shared upon. That's pretty much it. Opinion and all that stuff is rather meaningless, of course unless it's positive and makes me feel good. Then it's good stuff. I just want to open a significant part of myself with those whom I consider close relationshipers. If I'm wrong in my assessment, then that's the ass I make out of me.